I’ve been doing a lot of personal work on my self-confidence and my ability to open up and be vulnerable with other people. Slowly dismantling all those little self-created complexes and bargains I made over my life that hold me back from relationships and intimacy. Working back through all those insecurities and fears that I’ve built up from small events as a child (or as an adult). Acknowledging, accepting and congratulating all those decisions I made that were the best I could do with the knowledge and experience that I had at the time.
I’m closer than I’ve ever been to self-love, self-confidence, and being ready to actually try an intimate relationship with another human being (preferably someone who looks like Henry Cavill).
And now, across the world, people aren’t allowed to touch each other.
Well, FUCK THAT! FUCK THAT SO MUCH!!
Especially because the ruler of my 7th House is in my 12th, which apparently means I’m more likely to hook up with sexy foreign men. (Although, I guess there’s also a case to be made for some kind of quarantine romance—not quite as sexy as a vacation romance in an Italian winery but…)
Obviously I’m not advocating for, or at all planning on, breaking the physical distancing measures. Sick isn’t sexy.
But what I am doing is all Venus, all the time.
She’s the one planet in my natal chart that’s in a good house so I’ve enlisted her help with this area of my life. Inspired in part by Rune Soup’s latest premium member course on wealth, I’ve created a Venus altar.
I chose the statue very deliberately. My Venus doesn’t modestly veil her nudity with hair and hands. My Venus dances naked down the middle of the street, blowing kisses to all the boys. My Venus is confident and proud of her body. My Venus is not afraid to show it all off, to feel sexy. My Venus is open and vulnerable and powerful. My Venus lets people in and loves them all fiercely, careless of whether they might hurt her. My Venus adorns herself with beautiful things, embraces the stares and compliments. My Venus is sensual and loving and joyful.
My Venus is who I want to be.
So, while I can’t go out and meet new people and be with them and touch them, I’m going to soak myself in all things Venus. I’m going to carry her with me wherever I go. I’m going to fill my home with beauty and art and music and light. I’m going to make sure that, by the time this is over, I’m in an even better place than I was before. I am going to burst from my apartment like a goddess from the ocean and bring love and joy to the world.
This is what I think is needed now.
All Venus, all the time.